This is a list of "little things" that relate to my current location, but this location is much more multi-dimensional than I can explain. But that's no excuse for "not trying" to explain.
1. I am relieved to have a soundtrack to my life right now.
"It's not so impossible...It's a long life. Better pinch yourself."
"Get real. Get right with the Lord."
"I love you."
I'm thrilled knowing that Sufjan Stevens' newest album Age of Adz has hit #7 on the Billboard charts. I can already tell you what position it's hit for me: somewhere between #1 and a little bit above that. OK. I know he uses auto-tune, but it's SARCASTIC auto-tune. There's a difference.
2. Nora's daily exclamations: "I'm as stiff as a rock!"
We spend about 20 minutes everyday working out the tangles in her hair. There is no work greater than the work I do to serve her: the cups of cold water, the meals made, all the nighttime stories, pretending the same scene again and again until her imagination is real, until my real is imagination.
3. I work with and teach and learn from such remarkable people--funny, smart, gentle, and alive.
4. There is a sort of scientific miracle I'm learning to look for in strange variations in the light. I've documented them:
- the underwater waves of the electric red eyes dancing on the side of the boxcars as the train passes at night
- the rainbows I find on my spoon, the dish water, the kitchen walls cast from the prism in my window
- the lambency of light passing through the tree leaves landing in our hands on the couch
- a path of light on the tile floor in TLEC that moves beneath my feet no matter where I place them
- certainly the moon racing down the railroad track alongside my car like Charlie Chaplan's hat always kicked out of reach
- the light of the moon through the screen door, through the windmill, through me
- the refraction of light through tears growing like frost on a window pane as I squint my eyes
- All Christmas lights